jueves, 31 de mayo de 2012

Trust in a Lie


Well, sometimes I wish I could read minds; I wish I could read her mind. I saw her today, like any other day we talked, we laughed, we flirted, and we even were fan girling about a guy in school. But there something, she didn’t want to tell me, something that was reflected in her eyes every time she looked at me, every time she looked into my eyes there was something unsaid. Maybe words weren’t enough. I don’t know, she’s one of the two people I trust the most in this world, and I’m one of the person’s she trust the most in this world, but it was sad the way I couldn’t read between the blue, I just couldn’t understand.

-What happened? –I asked her.

-Nothing, I’m just sleepy and tired. –She answered.

-Don’t you dare to come to me saying that kind of bullshit, it seems you’re about to cry. –I wanted to say…I just shut my lips.

Trust? What we need is a little trust? C’mon, I don’t know where we are going. I know you since so long but sometimes it just seems we don’t know ourselves like we used to, it makes me wonder about what did I do wrong? I know you so good, I know when you’re sad, when you’re happy, and I know that when it seems you’re exploding in happiness deep inside something’s wrong, yesterday was one of those days, you were laughing at the passenger’s seat, making jokes with me and them, laughing about how ridiculous we were behaving, shouting to random people. But reflected in your eyes I could see another feeling, how long has it been? I really miss you and you’re by my side, that’s scary. Sometimes we avoid each other, when this happens we both know we need a break, but then we come together again, then a break, then…well, is a cycle. We lie to each other, we hide the truth then we show it, it’s like a Russian roulette. I don’t need to complain, I love our relationship, love-despise. Some days are like we’re strangers, and at the end of the day you just hold my hand.

Trust? Yeah that’s it. Trust. There are many secrets I don’t dare to tell you, and I know there’s one deep secret you don’t tell me, and I have an idea of what it can be. As I said before I love our relationship because is like nothing serious is happening, easy come easy go all the time this is the only game I like to play because is the only one that causes the pain I like, we leave each other and then come together to share something new. Sometimes I want to strangle you; sometimes I want to kiss you, I don’t like to share you I just dislike it. I’m sorry.

Trust. That’s what we need.

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